is this thing still on?

Hi there! Remember me? The girl with the faulty vagina? Yeah, I'm still here.

I was doing really really well for awhile, and I was under the treatment of a very good, highly respected doctor at Hahnemann/Drexel Hospital who initially said that there were all sorts of signs of inflammation and irritation and general grossness all around. He put me on twice weekly anti-yeast meds and this helped considerably. He said that even if you don't have yeast infections you can still be irritated by the normal levels of yeast that is up there so if you control it things get better fast. Provided, of course, that most of the pain is located in your skin and not in your muscles, nerves, or organ parts.

Guess what? It worked, pretty well. There is still some neural pain and some other nastiness but he said that he wants to pull me off the ridiculously high doses of Diflucan and see if I can live like a normal human girl again. He warned that it might get worse and then get better and it may even get so terribly worse that my crotch will actually ignite and I will pray for death (20% chance. ick) but maybe I'll get really lucky and nothing will happen and I will just feel the way I've been feeling.

I had a ten-day flare up two weeks ago. That sucked. But I'll gladly take a ten day stint and a few two and three day flare ups here and there over the 29 days of misery that used to plague my existence.

We'll see how this goes. The nerve pain sucks, but I'm not considering a block at this point. It feels very pinchy, exactly the way it would feel to take one of those bitey staple remover office supply things and clamp it down on your left lip and squeeze hard. The burning has subsided, I guess, but the tightness is still there.

At this point I feel okay because yes, it hurts, but I also have some sort of idea why. I guess. Hurting and knowing is worlds better than hurting and wondering if you sat on the wrong toilet seat and you have a raging herpectic infection that for some reason isn't showing up on an STD screen. Because that doesn't add any stress or anything.

I don't have to go back to the specialist unless I have a flare up that lasts more than four days, which is good. I like doctors that tell you not to come back unless you want to. It makes me feel like they care about me, not my co-pay.

Now if my regular gyn would just get back to me about the PAP and mini-biopsy I'd be set. I'm giving her until mid-September and then I'm calling her ass.